Yes, I know I haven't taken a picture in a long time. But I have basically been wearing the same thing everyday and I have been working so I can't wear my dress there. But I promise that there will be a picture up TODAY!
As Sarah stated, we are reading the book Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. I am almost done with the book and no words can come to describe what it makes me feel. The woman in the book does not know God. But she begins to worship her husband like he is one. He saved her from a past she thought she would never be saved from. He saved her from being treated like a piece of property and began to treat her with the kindness she deserves. She falls in love with his kind heart and his adoration towards life. Coming from a brothel, she has never seen this kind of love. Obviously she gets scared a lot and she starts to run away from the beautiful life that he has promised her. She thinks doesn't deserve it so she leaves because she knows that he is better off. But he always finds her and brings her back home to the love that she left.
It sounds a lot like Christ, huh? We are all SO undeserving of the love He has given us, but He pours it out to us anyway. I know I was definitely scared of the life that I could have. I had done so much to Him but yet He still searches for me and brings me back home in His arms. When I begin to question I get scared and doubtful. I start to say things like "Why me? Why have you chosen to love me? I'm not perfect, God. I mess up a lot. And I've run away from you before. So why do you still love me?" I guess these are questions asked frequently by people who have just started their journey with Christ just like me. But there comes that time where you can't live in the shadows anymore. You have to take that first step but then God will hold your hand through the rest. You have to realize that you may make mistakes but you are still beautiful in God's eyes.
I relate a lot to Angel. Even though, I was never sold into a brothel at a young age, I was still scared of the life that God was going to give me. Now that I am out of the hurt that I once endured, I am always turning my back from the One who has taken me from it. Sometimes, it seems so easy to go back. Because not unknown to us. Looking forward is frightening. There comes a time when one realizes that going back is not an option anymore. Although, the past will always be with you it does not mean that you have to live by it. I've had to learn to throw away my pride and just give all of it up. And although, I never thought I'd be at where I am today, I am so that God gave me the strength to put my pride aside and bring me to Him.
We all just need to realize, like Angel did, that God is here, He's real, and He's waiting on us to start loving Him without all of the 'what-ifs'. <3
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