Anissa- Blog #4

I feel like these past couple of weeks have just been sucking all of the life out of me. I find myself having to forgive people over and over again. It's easy to do once. But how do you continue to forgive someone when they keep hurting you?
I have been dealing with this question for almost a year and I still haven't found the answer. Everyone keeps telling me to pray and pray about it and God will answer me, but He hasn't... The truth is I hurt a lot more than I let on... My parents divorce hurts me so much.. Honestly, I would give up living the rest of my life if I could go back to 2 years ago when everything was fine for just one day. I miss having a family unity that makes me feel whole.. Now I'm just empty. People always tell me I am so emotional but I put up a brick wall when it comes to this.. I hardly ever open up about it. And when people tell me that they are there if I need to talk I never take them up on it. Talking about it makes it that much more real...
I guess the only thing I CAN do is to continue to pray. I'm not sure if it will ever get better but I have to try.  I'm not really sure if I can take anymore, but if there's any chance that I can get out of this mess I'm going to take it..

Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8